"Battle of Who Could Care Less" by Ben Folds Five Conlan's attempts at not caring anymore:
"Do you not hear me anymore? I know it's not your thing to care I know it's cool to be so bored Sucks me in when you're aloof It sucks me in, it sucks it works I guess it's cool to be alone. Will you never rest Fighting the Battle of Who Could Care Less."
"Dreaming of You" by The Coral Con's... problematic relationship with the women in his life.
"Up in my lonely room When I'm dreaming of you Oh what can I do? I still need you but I don't want you now."
"Caught by the River" by Doves What I imagine Conlan's father thinks of his son now:
"Son, What have you done? You're caught by the river. You're coming undone. Life, You know it can't be so easy, but you can't just leave it. Cause you're not in control no more.
And you give it all away. Would you give it all away now? Don't let it come apart. Don't want to see you come apart.
Son, What are you doing? You learned a hard lesson, when you stood by the water. You and i were so full of love and hope.
Would you give it all up now? Would you give in just to spite them all?"
"Body" By the Servant Conlan being in conflict with his nature:
"When you don’t know what you want You end up finding that you haunt your own Your own life You’re the daylight ghost that creeps You’re the empty city streets and I And I see you And those talkshows fill your days Something is slipping away Sometimes it feels like you don’t have a body Your skin is cellophane You know I feel the same Sometimes it feels like you don’t have a body"
"Boulevard of Broken Songs" by Green Day and Oasis Conlan and Ordhan's friendship:
"Backbeat the word is on the street That the fire in your heart is out I'm sure you've heard it all before But you never really had a doubt I don't believe that anybody feels The way I do about you now
I'm walking down the line That divides me somewhere in my mind On the border line Of the edge and where I walk alone
Today is gonna be the day That they're gonna throw it back to you
Read between the lines What's fucked up and everything's alright Check my vital signs To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
Today is gonna be the day That they're gonna throw it back to you (I walk alone, I walk alone) By now you should've somehow Realized what you gotta do (I walk alone, I walk alone)
And all the roads we have to walk are winding And all the lights that lead us there are blinding There are many things that I would Like to say to you But I don't know how"
"Man of Action" by Mathew Good band Con resents his father for doing what's honorable:
"Between the night and day Lost in the law of averages What would you know Unless youd lived a life of it?
They say the kid sold out, In love with himself run ragged, Always looked to be a man of action Cause thats what the old man Should have been"
"The Mission" by 30 Seconds to Mars Conlan Delaine, no longer a soldier, simply a Mercenary:
"I open up my head Inside I find another person's mind I'm gonna take this chance I've got I'm underlying as we speak Hiding my face among the weak Some say the day is on the way Into the wild On with the mission"
And for the Future...
"Vindicated" by Dashboard Confessional Forshadowing?...
"I am Vindicated I am selfish I am wrong I am right I swear I'm right I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed But I am cleaning up so well I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself"